totally agree there westburylad, cc I lost my last dog Penny 5 years ago and was beside myself with grief over her parting , its the same as losing a friend or relative , and its natural .
what I missed everyday was the welcome wake up nudge and the boom boom boom as she came down the stairs , the worst bit for me was seeing her bed and toys along with the feeding bowls , and realising she wasnt there when i called her .
We now have bubbles which is very much part of the family
Many years ago i had a German Shepperd called Jess, she sadly at the age of 12 years had stomach cancer and i knew the day had to come to take her to the vets to be put to sleep.
It got to the stage where she couldn't stand or walk so i knew it was time,but i didn't want to take her to be put down but i knew it was cruel if i kept her in this condition.
Like you Mike it broke my heart but i know that i gave her the best life i could and she will always be in my heart and memories.